I know I can’t blame you
Because your work isn’t you
Just that
I’m feeling
Completely left out
Of what you do, where you rush to, what you love
Your circles
Your travelling, your schedules
I know you’re trying your best to entertain me, affirm me,
Spend time with me outside of your busy-ness
And schedule changes really really can’t be helped
But I have emotions too
And I’m getting weary
Tired
I have expectations too
And it’s normal to expect things to go a certain way
It’s just repetitive
Consecutive
Times
Of shifting plans and delays and frayed hopes and distilled meet-ups
That never would happen
That’s getting me really
Tired
And cold
I know I shouldn’t blame you, and I can’t
And I won’t get angry with you
Because I love you, and love you for everything you are,
But I’m just struggling
With inconsequential hurts that don’t matter at the end of the day
But get me so
Tired
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