Daddy why does this keep swirling on?

I know You have plans for me, and I know You're asking me to trust You. I do, and I want to, but does it have to be this difficult?

"In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will..." Eph 1:11


I don't want to lose myself in the midst of it all; and yet I know you're asking that very thing - to lose myself so I can live proper. I can't and don't seem to want to fathom it, but please grant me the very faith to do it. I know Your grace is always sufficient.

“For whoever wishes to save his 1life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it." Mt 10:25

Father it hurts so much to be dismissed and ignored by the very person you open up to. I suppose that was what you felt in Your Son Jesus; when every person you opened yourself to betrayed, dismissed, left and pierced you at the very end.

"But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities..." Is 53:3

Father if this is the way to love then let me continue on this way; but please, please, walk with me, hold me and guide me and comfort me. I know You will satisfy my needs in your own riches and in your own time.

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you." Ps 32:8

weak.
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