Been working 9-6 so I'm getting up at 6.40am everyday, and working on a specific project in MOE has been rather stressful albeit enjoyable. Aside from that the nights have been packed with most things like seminars and church and dinner appointments, so I've been quite lethargic and grumpy at times. Needless to say my QTs had to be done on the MRT (thank God it's about an hour to get to work so at least there's an hour) and at work so I miss the good old times of waking up and straightaway spending 2 quiet hours of the morning talking with Daddy. Took some time to get my receiving antennae tuned back to Him again (with all the busy-ness and distractions) and I'm so thankful He decided to talk to me again. So thankful. Aside from all these peripherals I've had to deal with family tensions yet again, this time with my dad hospitalised on Mon right after our happy happy family meal on Sunday. He had a mild heart attack, went for a heart balloon op today and has turned out fine. But that brought to surface alot of painful issues, a lot of lessons to be learnt, a lot of need for forgiveness and getting our priorities straight - and each of us had a heart operation ourselves, with God as the surgeon. and I'm glad that God has answered prayers over this family and is continuing the work He started... and bringing it to completion one day. Furthermore my grandma was hospitalised last week as well, tumours on her bladder and she kept bleeding... was operated on yesterday and after the first op had excessive bleeding so she went in for 2nd op, and thank God it went well. After she came out and awoke the first thing she said was, "praise the Lord" in Teochew.
It so hasn't been easy for these couple of weeks, and yes you're thinking "not again, why's it always like that?" I don't know myself? but I know God's good. Somehow my idea of Singapore being the
reality and practical test of what I learn in York rings true yet again; yes there're tears and pain and all the old hurts and politics and frustrations confronting me face-to-face; old demons trying to sly their way through the crevices; memories of abandonment and hate and anger; but I'm so thankful, so thankful, that there's evidence of healing, evidence of change, of love in all of us,
and I really, really can't imagine a life without God.
Thank You Father.
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